Reason is the greatest enemy that faith has. – Martin Luther

I haven’t been writing much lately and that’s because I’ve been spending a lot of time researching the history of God. I figured if I want to understand something, I need to know where it all began. Or at least where we’re told it all began.

But I’ve also been very frustrated with my faith among other things. For some reason I have always had this system of checks and balances in my head about God’s good will: you do right by Him and he’ll do right by you. Simple, right? Too simple, I’m sure. But what I don’t get is how you can work on doing all the right things and have nothing change positively or negatively in your life. You have to wonder, what’s the point then?

Now people say He has a plan for us all (and I’ve given my two cents on that whole free will thing), but I have to wonder how much of that is just said to make us all feel better. It seems like whenever good things happen to us it is because of God, but whenever bad things happen it’s never anything He is doing. Why does He get credit for the good and none of the bad? How does that make any sense?

If you do things the way it is taught in scripture, then why would bad things happen to you at all? Shouldn’t your life be perfect? I realize how boring that would be and that perfection is just a perception we all have that we’ll never be able to achieve. But is that logic that far off? I don’t think so.

And does God not play a role in the things we ask him to, that we pray for Him to, because they aren’t important enough of matters? Does it have to be life and death in order for you to be able to justify praying to Him and asking Him for help?

And when things do start to fall into place, do we just assume it is because God stepped in? How do we know those things wouldn’t have happened naturally?

I’m not exactly sure what goes on in my life is important enough for God to even have the slightest thought about given what else goes on in this world.

I’m beginning to realize just how distant He really may be.

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